sparrow horse

this is us in the morning.  floating in space.  it seems.  feckless.  hungering for another chance to sleep deeply.  when so many nights pass us by like the dream of a dream.  but the colorado sun shines today and i am a lucky girl who gets to go buy a 1981 toyota pickup.  then i might have a vehicle to bring hay home in and hope to have more money to save for our big adventure.  our big adventure that causes me to tremble and toss at 3am.  and then at 8am has be grinning and writing equipment lists.  and then at 3pm has me fatigued and imaging setting up camp.  when will it be real?  i have never pursued such an immense goal, such as pioneering the west on horseback.  and although it might never be completed (i must first set out), it has me, two horses and lola my pup working full time.  sometimes i forget why we are living the way we are.  why we are waiting.  why we all turn our heads towards the passage of the sun.  day after day.